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every night im texting you i wish i was with you, it hurts i cry i saw you walking in front of me but i wouldn't call your name because i despise you i miss you, and i hate you, and i guess i still love you a little too i just text you because it helps me fall asleep at night please don't text me for ages i hate it ring me or stop i wish i was texting someone else right now instead of you please don't tell my wife about my girlfriend i feel let down by you lately. that's why i cry a lot i love you you're nothing but a jealous faggit, leave me alone and get a life... u make me sick... i used to love you but not anymore, not after this you’re too good for me i will never deserve you wondering if you're thinking of me or maybe missing me amy is the love of my life think i'm going to have to get back in the game... girls cannot deal with genuine this is an open relationship my wife need not know your my bit on the side i'm sick of writing in my diary, i want to tell you i still love you, and i'm still here waiting for you... we have a love-hate relationship i love you and you hate me, but of course you love the sex and i fucking hate when it stops... so maybe this could work out... why don't you understand me i'm gay i'm afraid I wont ever succeed in life i hope he will understand where i'm coming from i know i should dump you but why cant i I wish I could tell my mam that i'm kinda seeing someone right now. i wished you would leave me alone and get a life you're a brat i wish i could say i want guys as well as girls i wish i didn't have to pretend why don't you two just grow up i love him so much and he knows it today i just only wish i could get one hug that could last a lifetime i just wanna say i'm mad about you dude will u go out with me? I really want to know if he's telling the truth or not i lied bout the whole thing... and you know what i'm talking about i wish you would leave me alone and quit seeing me as a free ride you are a shit boyfriend you are fine now but just wait 10 years and you wont even want yourself help i love meeting other peoples boyfriends will i or wont i get caught how do i tell you you broke my heart when i know you can't fix it don't leave me now not when i'm pregnant with your kid why can't you see that i love you and we can work this out she is not worth it please come back to me... i spent my college grant on new boobs he says he loves me but he really? i will scratch your face, you fucking green-eyed whore I know you're sleeping with your professor wankers the lot of them my girlfriend can be a bitch i miss you so badly. we were supposed to be just friends and i fucked it up... wish you would forgive me... stop treating me like your mistress i want your sex i want too scratch your eyes out good friends and a bottle of pills i wanna get back with you... badly why are you such a cunt all the time? what did I do to you? care to go to dinner tonight? there is this little japanese steakhouse by the beach. please love me i'm waiting for you to text me... i dare you i love you too... I don't like you that kiss was wonderful... i wish you weren't moving away, in the meantime, why can't we give it a try? we're both alone, what is there to lose? I really want to know what's going on in his head. Why is he ignoring me... have I done something wrong... should I move on... He says he loves me but does he really You're the most amazing person i know... i wish I could tell if you felt the same about me He loves me, not you. i was perfectly happy with us not talking. why did you have to start up again putting a roof over our head is only half of what being a husband and father is about... I really think you are a worthless cunt and I regret the day I said,I do... I hope you die in a fire. i'm a 22 year old virgin. i know you want me, I just wish we didn't live so far away from each other When asked about my favorite music artist, I usually reply, I don't have one. My favorite artist is actually Madonna. where are you? do you even care about me any more? i wanna have anal sex i think i might have married someone who is insane. my neighbours have loud sex and i cant help but laugh i miss you. i miss us. This is goodbye... i hope to bury the hatchet with you someday, right between your skull i wish i didn't have feelings for you I wish I had split both of you up when I had the chance, so you would be with me instead. Hey, how are you today? I miss you... I'm a 23 year old virgin, I couldn't give a shit though. you looked beautiful tonight do you really like me I want to be with you for the rest of my life but i'm scared I only want that because its safe just got a text, but it’s not from you, so uninterested in replying i want to hold your hand right now. i want to hold your hand right now i'm sorry. i am still in love with you. my in laws lock me away from my newborn baby while my husband is at work I need someone to love me... will you i am sorry i messed things up. can you forgive me yeah i do really like you... text me will ya! I just wonna say that I can't stop thinking of you and I really miss your face your smile, i took you for granted and now you're gone i still want to sleep next to you I was fine until you sent me that text. Now the heartache has returned. so are you really interested in what is going on in my life? i doubt that. I cheated on you. four times in body, a million times in my mind. I'm so sorry, actually, maybe I'm not. I'd do it again if I had the chance with that one person. I knew you were using me the whole time. You didn't know that I was using you, too i want to be closer to you, but I don't know if you want the same. tell me or show me i am always a text away, if you want that i still love him wanna fuck I wish I had the guts to kiss u and the rest new years eve I wish u could see this i am so disappointed in myself I like someone i'm not supposed to like... I wish I was black I miss waking up next to you i'm loosing him more everyday i wanna put my arms around you and hold you tight then i would slowly make my way south miss him loads... i wish someone noticed me I love you so much... you're my best friend and the most important person in my life. I just wish we weren't so far away i wish i could express myself more clearly my girlfriend is the hottest girl in the world my coworker is a jealous bitch would you ever take me back? i am ending a friendship i wish she was still here for me as she always listened to me, but she got with my best mate from school and now he won't let her talk 2 me i secretly want to be a man I've found someone else to fill that void, now I'm not sure I want to start talking to you again Then this is goodbye, isn't it? I was never good at goodbye I saw you tonight and my heart broke again how would you feel if i came over tonight the thought of you makes me so hard. i want you so bad I want someone that i can't have... its fucking brutal... would you please talk to me? this can't go on like this i need some loving any takers thank you for tonight. i had a great time. love you you're my bestfriend in the world and i couldn't live my life without you... i wanna be more and we were but i just wanna know what happened i need to hold you in my arms. i miss looking into your eyes. why wont you just talk to me you have been on my mind all day. miss you i just wanna be in your bed now cuddling don't waste your time on me. you're already the voice inside my head. i miss you you used me like always what would happen if i came over right now and kissed you loved your new look. you look great with long hair if i could change the past i would... i still love you... i wish i could hate you instead of loving you i regret the day i said, i love you. i hope you get run over by the dump truck, it flips over, burst into flames. incinerating your skanky ass with it I love your smile. you don't do it enough i needed to hold you and you were gone i'm gonna fail my exams!! time to pull an all nighter how can i tell him that i like him I am in love with you and don't know how to give you up I still love you. No matter how many times I tell you that I don't. I just want to make it true for myself so I can stop hurting I dreamt of you this morning and woke up crying I want to see you so bad, can we please hang out today i'm lonely I'm going to be ok in order to be rid of her, I have to be rid of you i would have called, but i don't think you really don't care for me any mor roommates do not date other roomates i saw you with him. it made me just break down and cry there are so many things I want to say to you, but simply don't have the courage just please stop ringing me now... i have had enough i love you. i know you don't feel the same, but i still had to say it. They think i'm happy i want you so bad. our relationship isn't based on sex, but damn you feel so good. now that its too late i wish i had you are on mind. how are you i cant stop thinking about you Before moving home... should we have sex Yes. Or else the wicked thoughts will remain in our heads and we will be left wondering I want you more than ever. its fucking pathetic that you're both over 50 and living with your parents why can't i be the one for you i wish i was a girl but i'm not gay God I loved you but it's better to let you be free so you can live your life and I can live mine i'm very sad, i don't know what to do. these last weeks you hurt my feelings a lot I am so grateful for what I have, even though more than often I miss what I had with you sleep next to you tonight was great, but I don't mean anything to you, do i? things are really busy right now, but it's worth it. sometimes i wonder if all this brain-switching will come back to haunt me in the future it absolutely will come back to haunt you. quit being so busy relax and forget about it. take a sauna, enjoy life... I love waking up with you by my side I fight with you because i want your attention... but you never noticed. Now its too late... sometimes swallow your damn pride be mine secret tears in the bed next to him while I dream of you why can't you make love to me? dance with me even if the music stops playing. spin the night away with me i know i messed up. won't you just forgive me and talk to me... Stop being so damn stubborn. The way you talked to me hurt so bad, why do i still love you I really need to be taken by you I miss you now more than ever you're wonderful person your good qualities made me to love you last night was fantastic! too bad all good things must come to an end I miss you, darling. It will never be us, will it? We will never be together sometimes i wish i could say your name, saying it would not make me feel better. i wish you could tell me you love me, but it is too late for that too Why didn't you just tell me you are already seeing someone else I should be the one sleeping next to you you're a mummies boy and you never put me first, grow up you immature little boy I always wonder about these friends you are off seeing all the time After all of this, I'm still in love with you I can never be him and you will never love me like you do him I can still smell your perfume on my clothes It'll never be us, will it why the hell don't you miss me? it meant nothing to you did it Of course I miss you. My heart thumped so hard in my chest the other evening when I was near you And so here we are. Wanting each other and not going. What the hell is wrong with this picture? i'm so hurt by you for the third time, you promised you wouldn't do it again but this time the pain is worse... you are the first thing i think of when I wake up in the morning I am in love with a man I have only known for a month. he's married. i'm married. i'd marry him if he asked me to... I miss you, my lady i want to bang you so hard, you won't be walking tomorrow I'm just not pretty enough for you, am I i never met a girl like you i wish i could make you mine... right now i'm serious. i want to be with you. i want to make you mine i love you with all my heart and soul... if i could, then i would, i'll go wherever you'll go. way up high or down low. i'll go wherever you go I'm ready to love again but I'm not ready to look for it You were every dream come true to me and I loved you more than ever, you lying cunt i wish i had just written down my number and handed you back the bag i left myself open for you and am paying the price for it now I'm sorry you're depressed mum but its not my fault You said, I don't throw people away and then you threw me away I haven't seen you for 11 years, today you emailed me... It's like nothing has changed it's me, again. i am very happy, in case you were wondering I can't believe you just left. I thought you loved me. Turns out we were both just performing. Maybe now we'll both be happier you used to be fun to hang out with after work, now you're a bit of a nightmare in general i don't talk to you, it makes me sad but I'm getting used to it you have the most electric of eyes when your happy, full of mischief and fun! But when your cross or unhappy they're as black as night I don't want to be your friend. I want to be your love. you're my best friend but you're a constant twat to me... stop sleeping with the girls you know i like Soon, darling. I'll be there soon we're just friends You hurt me and I know you're sorry... I don't know if I can forget it though... Love isn't the problem, trust is wish you were here i'm sorry liam, i should have never said i that i never wanted to talk to you again. but really i miss talking to you. i'm sorry if i hurt you. i really hope you see this You have a beautiful way with words i'm an open book if only one single person would read the page Make it stop After this whole crisis is over, we will be together baby... it's just a matter of time... I think I love you... I love giving you blow jobs but I wish you would shave your balls you make me smile... a lot fuck bitch, everyday i hate you more. why are you living in my house, ruling my life and getting my child i want to get out... but no exit I can’t talk to you any more because I can’t speak the words I want to say. Not any more There is a big hollow spot where my heart should be. I feel as though I have an exit wound on both sides. I know we will never be together again but I can only dream lieverd ik mis je, ben blij dat ik je heb leren kennen; je geeft mijn leven weer de zin van vroeger, je bent het licht achter de horizon, de zonneschijn na de I just wanted to make you happy I paid dearly Someone else has taken my place and my heart aches for you more than ever really hope these guys are gone for good and if so that he doesn't bring them back! Have been really miserable and low Why do I let you use me like this? I have a brain. I should know better. I thought I was over you. Apparently, I thought wrong You don't miss me at all, do you So I'm supposed to just sit here while you are off fucking someone else? Bollocks Think I'm going to go mad!! Really starting to hate my job as receptionist, doing it way too many years! Would love to get away from one or two people here as well You didn't miss me. I know that. I still miss you i just ate more food in 15 minutes than i usually eat all day I've become a placeholder for the next guy in your life. I've been love with you for a very long time. I don't know how to stop stop cheating on me. everyone knows you are, I know you are you've done it in front of me twice. stop lying to me please just fucking admit it You've left me and found someone else I think I'm in love with you I'm still in love with you, 3 years later, I still miss you and would take you back even though you broke my heart. I will never love another person the same hey i miss you. you don't really care about me anymore. i wish i could see you again soon and hold you and kiss you. i miss us. don't u remember the good times Why are you so angry? Can't you calm down and see what your doing to the family You're so far away and I miss your smiling face I cry when I think about my sister going away for 18 months i have everything i have ever wanted, i'm happy well you finally called, hopefully i will see you today i love with you more than you will ever know.. not in that kinda way. but i just want to protect you from the world. make you happier than you've ever been I am scared you are too good for me on all respects. That you will realise this and leave me is my principle fear. when I visit you i need to know you care I woke up reaching for you, only to find the empty space I'm sorry I walked away from you i would cut of my arm to have you love me like i love you What do I have to do to forget about you Why won't you trust me when i look into your eyes, it's like falling love all over again. i wish i could be with you right now and will go visit you if that's what you want. love you more I still think of you at least 10 times a day i tried so hard I feel like i'm not good enough for you, or for anybody. I should stop putting myself down so much.. then again why would you fancy me I could need you to be there for me right now, where are you I wish we had sex like we used to, now you just lie there and it kills me Your life changed and you couldn't tell me. He asked you to live with him, didn't he? Or worse yet, to marry him he hates me and i'm crazy about him. stupid people, stupid people who don't listen Since as i can't say it to his face i like him, im going to email him as i need to get it off my chest because i'll regret it for the rest of my life if i don't all these breakup songs are making sense again I wish they didn't I know I mean nothing to you, but I just had to say that I miss you. It's been nine years, and we're still not engaged. I've wasted so much time why don't you ever call me anymore? have you forgotten about me? i miss you. please write me or call me i don't want to go to oz...tell me you love me and i'll stay i miss him but he's an asshole I miss my lover and best friend - do you ever think about me and how good it was I am naturally very slim and i have never made myself sick, but I never go to the bathroom in restaurants in case whoever i'm with thinks i do always wanted to ask for your number but i know you're out of my league I just want to know why? it was the guts of 7 years? That's a long time to lead someone on. What's going on in that head of yours You can't even say hello i fucking hate you for being with him, seriously how could you fucking do this to me. I never want to see you again As much as you miss me, I miss her. I can't see you without seeing her. And now that she's with someone new, how can I see you I have a crush on you. I think of you all the time. I wish for these feelings to be mutual. I wish for you to be mine. Show me your attraction. Give me a sign i stopped singing our song. it hurt too much I really wish i was with you at christmas i know you are coming back to me, i can feel the your love reaching out to me again just make it soon please I just found out one of my best friends has stage three breast cancer. I don't even know how to feel please don't leave me... let me know when he is leaving?? i'll see you then, i'll make you mine you may not feel how much i miss you, it's four days without a hug... you know, im done I want to go out with you, but I'm afraid of what people will say. It's not that there's nothing wrong with you, I'm just a pussy I trusted you more than anyone else. How could you do that to me? How could you do that to us? I mean nothing to her and still can not get her out of my mind. you probably don't know i like you but i really do. i know your my boss but even just seeing you at work hurts because i belong with you. one day i will tell you before it's too late you mean nothing to me and i want you to understand it at last! for me you don't exist! i told you i'm cruel i still like you even though you're taken. i've been weird around you lately but now i'm moving on. i would like us to be friends, whatever happens, time will tell you should have told me before letting me fall in love with you. Thats what you wanted anyway hey babe will you move in with me. please say yes I'm so jealous of your girlfriend, not just because she's beautiful and everything you want... it's because she got my entire dream life in one second. You love her, as well as her loving you. And I'm stuck the third wheel again. I was so touched when you just said you love me. You're like the best friend I never had and you know how to make me smile. I'm pregnant with twin girls, and they're yours. i don't want a chinese tonight I really like you, but I know it won't work out between us. At the same time, I don't want you with anyone else... If you knew that you never ever loved me, why did you just use me for sex? what goes around comes around and i will laugh when it happens to you! Just drop dead I was so touched when you just said you love me. You're like the best friend I never had and you know how to make me smile i so want to sleep with him. he makes me shiver. She turns my head without even trying. I never had a chance I am messing around doing work but not doing what I should be doing, which is real work that will earn me some kudos i can't say what i want to say to you sometimes you look at me and it takes my breath away, other times I can't breathe I don't even know why i'm still with him cause i'm not attracted to him anymore and its you I want, but you have to break up with her too Dump her, and i'll dump him i did wrong by sleeping with that girl what the fuck is your problem I feel ugly. My wife assures me I'm handsome, but I can't get past this mental image of myself. I tried to let you go but you haunt my dreams. I miss you, my soulmate we kissed 3 times... and then nothing... red head on united flight. i got your bag from the overhead. meant to say i love you i'm glad we made up, but i still don't know if i can trust you. i wish you'd tell me you love me we were never the same after he came along. how you can treat a person like that i'll never and yes the other thing was in some way about you I was confusing your social awkwardness with you being not that into me. In a strange turn up for the books, I was wrong. You seem to actually like me. I can't believe you feel like you can treat my feelings like a yo-yo. In and out of my life at your whim. Why don't you just face your feelings, be a man I can still smell your perfume. It still drives me crazy it's a boy i wish i could marry him i'm alone again I miss you so much. Not only have I lost my lover, but I lost my friend. i should have listened to my friends. all you did was take away 6 months of my life to make yourself happy and become more popular. dirty whore. i don't think you're the baby's father. sorry, i should have told you sooner. overwhelmed. so much going on, i just want to curl up and sleep. i want her badly, an entirely unhealthy but incredibly mature, a love of my past life Your wife hangs like a noose around my neck. I want it to be over i hate the way he chews I could smell your perfume when we hugged. It was great. I am such a coward why can't she just leave us alone Why does seeing you still make me smile? maybe I should stop pretending. maybe you love me, too. i will never give up hope that you will come back to me... love never gives up hope are you thinking of me? if ours is the best sex ever, why are you with her? I'm tired and everything has gone to shite. i miss you why are you doing what you are doing? what's the point in choosing when we all know whatever choice i make i would be happy with and i will end up hurting somebody I wish i was going to bed with you next to me I try to smile but simply can not do it. you don't call, don't write, i miss you and what will i do if you forgot about me? I wished it was me with you instead of him. I love muscular women looking at your pictures, i wish i had never looked away I hate the fact that you are in a wheelchair I love you, but I wish we'd never married. I love the children, but I hate being a mother. I want out, but can't do it. I want me back. i am so sick of this. Why do I stay with you The time for us to fix all of this passed a long time ago. We need to be honest and call it a day. Now that we have done the deed, does this mean I won't ever see again? come back soon.. it's almost three days i'm finally over my ex i had sex with someone else. i kissed your best friend. i break all my promises. i swear on peoples lives and lie to you. yet you still think i'm an angel. are you thinking of me? wanting me? how do I keep you from forgetting me? Friendship over! I'm done being made a fool of. Some day you will finally realise but tough shit it will be too late! Thanks for fuck all i know you are thinking of me, even though you may be with her. why else would you still want me so bad I miss your smile I miss you so very much. I wish you were here with me. Are you thinking of me right now? i miss you so bad I can't sleep I know you are thinking of me right now... so call me I wish you felt like you could talk to me... I would really like to know what you think went wrong and how we can fix it and be happy again i'm sorry i hurt you. i wish you would talk to me its been over a year and i still think about you. all the time I love you... why are you acting like this? does he really make you happy? did i ever make you happy? do you leave her sitting home alone like you did me? leave her home alone tonight and come to me you know i'd never lie to you and all i do i have done it for you, my heart always beating for you, nothing there i couldn't do for you i could die for you he really misses u and i don't think he will last much longer on his own. i dreamt of you yesterday. you were asleep in the bed we shared for the last time. I don't understand why you have stopped speaking to me again why is it so hard for you decide if you want me or not i melted when i heard your voice. i could listen to you forever. thank you for making me melt... the sex is always so good everything is always so good wishing i could be by your side, i know it's never to late to move over there i want to visit but i just know i'll end up sleeping with you which is never a good idea We kissed when we were drunk, you think we have something. but I just see you as a friend and I don't want to lose you I really want to go out with you, but at the same time it'll be so messy and complicated I'm not sure. Besides, i have no idea how you feel, sometimes I think you like me, sometimes I think we're just friends are you going to marry her? please don't for me and for yourself Was thinking of you, thought I would say I don't even get a hug any more. I never realized how much I miss those from you or how much it would hurt not to be able to touch you. even though i'm together with him, i always think about you. i miss you and i wonder why nothing ever came out of us I love you baby you're the one who wanted a relationship... not me... so why is my heart the one that's broken? i love you so much i would risk my life to make yours safe. i really mean that. you are my world i wouls be heart broken if you ever left me but i kissed someone else last night you're hot, i like you, you said you are taken. i still like you, i'm saddened, and you've noticed. what now? don't know. i'll be friendly, and maybe fun again. i miss you... i hate you... broke my heart, but i still love you I have the best girlfriend in the world but i'm so infatuated with caroline. I would love for her to like me but she is so out of my league zoves me,i ja ignorisem tvoje pozive jer nemam snage da pricam..vidim da mi saljes poruke, ali telefon sam razbila. Mozda ti se javim kad prestanem plakati when are you going to wake up and realize that you were meant to be with me not her... or are you going to be blind until it is too late? please don't be blind please listen to your heart quickly i woke up and you were gone. why did you leave me? i want you, i have feelings for you, i am weak around you. yet i cannot pursue. i cannot expect reciprocation. i'm playing it cool. it's hard to speak to you. why do you hurt me when all i do is give you my love i love u but there is distance between us... i have been talking to someone else... i have falling for him. i'm torn. please tell me how much you want to be with me. i need you i hate myself and i feel suicidal... you better call me before more than my phone is dead... How can you still want me to talk to you after what you've done, after you defiled me and made me hate myself for betraying the one person who I truly loved, who wasn't you? you could not even tell me good night. i could not stop looking at your picture this morning. how do i get rid of her so that you will see how much you need me? will you please just go away and leave him alone so he will can see what he really wants you cheated on me when our child was only 2 months old, but now you want to get married? How can I ever trust you again? why can't I get you out of my mind and stop my body from wanting you so bad? because my heart knows you are going to come back i just wished you would hurry Get over it already and move on! She wasn't worth it. i fucking love you but i don't know what you want from me, you tell me you love me i don't know if i can believe you you have me so confused i know that you love me but you still keep saying how confused you are i really need you to make up your mind... love me or let me go as much as i want to see you, i don't have the courage or the heart any more. you'll just hurt me again. how the hell do you manage to get me so fucked up and feel like shit in less than a second? I wish you die in fire bitch! Sex with is like a thorn on a penis! I hate you, i love my kid. When are you going to realize that she is not the one? it is so obvious that your heart is still with me You used to make me happy. Now you can't even hug me. How far have we fallen? last night was so wonderful, did it make you remember? if so, come back so we can have that magic again i really need to spend sometime with you to plan all this you must be giving up cigarettes secretly because your in shit humour these days I wish you loved me like I love you I cry every time I think about you because I know I'll never make a difference in your life. It's because of people like you that the world is festering with disgusting excuses for human beings. I hope you drop dead, I hope your family drops dead, I hope your friends drop dead. They're all betrayals of this human race. I'm crazy about you. I feel like such a rotten person because i feel like everything would be so much easier if you died. what an awful thing to think I want to jump your bones I want to make every excuse I can to meet you. I want to know you. I want you to know me. I think we have something. Let's give it a go, shall we? Wish I could say this in person. sometimes i feel like love isn't enough any more, i need something else, and i don't know what it is or where to find it Just when I thought we were getting somewhere you got all distant. I'm crazy about you and didn't mean to fuck it up. What did I do wrong? i miss you so much that it hurts. I ound out today that I have a brain tumour. I'm scared shitless but trying to look optimistic. What if I die? I know I should think positive, but I am terrified. WHY is this happening to me? i feel like such a bitch because i say all these nasty things to you and you still tell me you love me and say that i'm an angel and i just cant stop talking shit to you even though i fucking love you more than life. where are u? I need u now and u r nowhere to be found. I love you so much and I think u feel the same way. r u scared bcuz you know i'm on the out? i need u 2 say hey i'm here 4 u, that's it, nuting more. just had the most amazing day but can't tell anyone about it, she is incredible Trying to figure out what I did wrong. Was I not the sex goddess you thought I would be? Did I come on too strong? Or are you just a moody bastard? I know my wife posts here, it's in her history, but there are so many scenarios that might be her. I hope she know I love her and she is my Goddess. I just wish I could make that obvious, I love her more than anyone could say, but yet she feels she's ugly and I can't dissuade her. What do I do? I love her more than life itself. I'm an alcoholic. Been pretending I was drinking to avoid other problems. Finally copped on to the fact that the drink is my problem and causing any other problems. Am scared shitless, but finally ready to face reality and apologise to everyone I've hurt or been stupid with whether they know it or not. Life does not come in a bottle. this is going to hurt... I'm not really happy with you. HM, i wish i knew if i could trust you or not. i use to be so sensitive and naive, now sometimes i wonder if my heart is made of stone. ive been hurt before and i am still not over it, even though its been 5 years. i will always love him and i cant help it. i never want to give my heart away again. but even without giving it away, i am breaking it myself. im tired of being me. sometimes i wonder if im a lesbian ive been married and mistreated for 4 years and i no longer feel i am worthy of anything. but now there is a guy interested in me and he treats me nice, has a lot in common with me and everything. i am afraid to leave the marriage bc i know deep down, nobody will ever love me. except me. my grandfather raised me and he is getting really old. he is the only person to ever give a damn about me and i have nightmares about him dying. i hope that if he dies, i die the same minute so i dont have to know life without him. he is my rock and the only person i have ever trusted. love you papaw. im tired of failing at everything i attempt. someone should fucking notice me by now. i wish i could wake up on another planet, and see a sky with two moons, live next to "aliens" and live without the restriction of government. i wish i was rich so i could make myself look perfect i wish it wasnt just the same 5 people who give a fuck about me i wish i had a different life. i wish i hadn't married him. over three years have passed and i still love you. why won't you love me? i want to go back to him even though i know it's wrong. at least i wouldn't be alone. i still feel horrible. i still want to kill myself. the kids would be better off without me. I wonder if I went back in time to tell myself not to get married, if I would even listen to myself. I was in an orgy at a mansion party and can't remember how many people I messed around with that night. I like to go outside in see-through shirts - I want people to see my nipples and I secretly want someone who sees my nipples to just rape me. I like to masterbate in public places. on the worst day of my life my best friend brought me candy hearts even though she had a valentines date that same night... and i never even said thank you im thinking of you right now I hate fishing. I wish it would rain everday im totally head over heels for a guy who might be a serial dater. My dreams are shattered like the glass used to slit my wrists. i know she doesn't give a damn about me, but i still miss her. I love you but you don't even see me! I'm here why aren't you listening. To the guy that said "I wish I was black" call Michael Jackson heard he has a good doctor...lol your call out of the blue made my heart leap. it was meaningless to you, but meant the world to me. Someone left me an anonymous message saying they loved me... I have narrowed it down to five people... I just hope my husband never finds out. Sometimes love is not enough. i had a great time tonight. thank you. my heart fluttered being next to you. too bad it doesn't mean a fucking thing to you. when i get drunk like this, i wish you were here to make me smile i miss you so much. The sadness has turned into the most intense missing. It is so painful. Please, when the break is over, tell me you need me in your life, and you'll find a way to make it work. when you are done running around, i will be right here waiting. you're out fucking around one me again. I have sex with guys for money, even though I have a loving boyfriend who would do anything for me. The money I make, I save so I can someday visit the man I truely love. you shouldn't visit me. i can't handle saying goodbye to you again. I wonder if we could ever make sense... that'd be magic in a whole new realm. If you were here, I would kiss you good night. i hate how i feel after talking to you. does putting your secret here helps you in something? what the hell was I thinking? baby i miss you so very much you make me miserable,yet I can't stop myself I hope he treats you better than I ever could.